A rough Thanksgiving

its been a tough few days.

Thanksgiving was good. I spent it along side of my family (as usual), and then after I went to Ben's house for dessert.

My dad called me Friday. It's always hard talking to him. I don't know why -well, maybe I do- but everytime we talk I want to cry. My eyes tear up and I get that fucked up knott in the back of my throat that doesnt let me swallow. It sucks.

Anyway... the toughest part of these last few days was saying bye to Bean. Bean is the smalles and oldest of our dogs. She was a fiesty yet sweet dog. She never thought of herself as a small dog... and would constantly attack our 125 lbs. Rottweiler. She was daring! Well Bean has had a soar that wouldn't heal for a few months now, the Vet said it was Cancer and tried to give her some meds. Well this weekend it just got worse. She developed about 3 more soars and just completely stopped eating. Well it was hard, but we had to make the decision to put her down. She was 12 years old her body just didn't seem like it wanted to go further. It was hard. I think what makes it harder is that we have lost a dog every year for the past 3 years. All of old age. I hope next year is different!

RIP Bean 8/1994 - 11/2006