Co- Dependency... A bad thing!

And it's Thursday. I can't believe how fast this week has passed. I've been swamped with school work, mainly because I left too many assignments for the last minute. What can I say, I work better under pressure... sometimes. OH and I'm also a procrastinator.

More and more, I feel the need to move out. I live with my mother, 3 older siblings, a 13 year old nephew and four dogs (one is mine). Yes we have a full house. Now don't get me wrong, I'm not there by choice. You see, we live in a nice, safe neighborhood, and if I were to move out, the rest of them would not be able to afford the rent, leading them to have to move. So this is where my conscious come in (damn it). I would feel bad, if my nephew had to change schools, and have to attend a bad neighborhood. He wouldn't have the freedom he gets now, where he can play in the front yard, or walk over to the park, a few blocks away.

All in all I think the major problem is we (my siblings and I) are so co-dependent of each other. We are, in a sense, living in a "marriage". Any decision we make, weather it be financial, or professional, effects the other greatly. Which in turn, is a bad thing.

I think I have the hardest time with it, because I am a bit anal when it comes to my finances, my credit, and reputation. I balance my checkbook, I save a little every pay check, I pay may bills on time, I work hard, study harder, and still manage to squeeze in some fun. I set goals, and I accomplish them. But when one of my sibs enters a hardship, they come to me for help. I wouldn't mind it, but sometimes, I end up getting screwed. Whether they don't pay me in full, or it takes them forever to pay.

I do have a plan though. I expect to make a few grand more once I finish my BA, which in turn, would give me the ability to pay out "mother" support. This will free up my finances and would lead me to be able to buy a condo... or something small.