Someone said...

Someone in a blog said that we only let people see what we want them to see. This is too true. I have found that some of my closest freinds, don't really know me. Its not their fault. I just don't tell much. It's not that I don't want to... its just I guess I don't want to go into detail. It's wierd. I can bare everything, when I write... but when it comes to talking... my feelings, my thoughts, everything gets burried. To tell you...I have never cried in front of a friend. I have only cried when I am alone.

I have had a .....BLAH....... day.
I found out one of the jobs I really wanted...does not want me!

Rejection! EGH...

Its interesting, though.

Had I known this last week, I would have not given it too much thought and moved on...

Today... Today was a different story.
I cried... I wept...
I don't know why... but I just kept weeping. Like a little girl... I felt so weak! I didn't like it! I kept thinking... "I'm being foolish" "What the fuck is wrong with me?"... I knew it wasnt the job... but I still cried!